Stop giving a damn what people think

I started blogging when I was around 14 years old. Don't get me wrong, I could have started when I was 10 or 12. But I didn't. Do you want to know the reason why? Well, because of people.

You like it or not, people judge. They always have and they always will. And of course me, being a silly teenager, I cared about what people might say and what they might think about me having a blog that is like a diary in a way. You write there for everyone, not only for yourself. You let people read about your thoughts and ideas, you allow them to see the world through your eyes and that is scary. I knew from the beginning that there could be two options. One - they will like what they read. Or two - they won't. Which could possibly lead to them making fun of me and that leads to judgement. The topic for today. 

Judgement, my children, is a very nasty thing. And you, yes you reading right now, judge. You judge people for the way they look, the way they talk, the way they smile, the way they think and etc. Everyone does that. Some judge more, some judge less but we all do that. And that is the reason so many people wait so long to get started on something. I waited quite a long time before I actually allowed all my Facebook friends to read my blog, before that it was only for my family. I know so many people that would like to start filming videos for YouTube, some want to go to the X Factor, some are scared to come out of the closet and tell the world about their sexuality and all because of this judgement. But let me tell you something. If you care what people think, you will get nowhere in life. All your dreams will fade away, all your ideas will remain - only ideas. I am not stating myself as a perfect example of a person who does not give a shit what people think, but you know what, if there are people reading this blog post and thinking that it's complete bullshit I am okay with that. I'm okay with that because I do not really care about some strangers opinion. Frankly, I think, so far, I'm doing a pretty good job with this post. I like it, my mom likes it, my dad likes it and that is all that matters, you know? You cannot let people fill you up with dark thoughts, you cannot let them get into your head and control your life. You have to do what you have to do, otherwise you will regret it for the rest of your life. I've read an article the other day that said that most people before they die regret not following their dreams and I don't want to be one of them. Before I die, I want to look back into my life and have a smile on my face, knowing that I did all I wanted to do, I tried my best and I got somewhere. Please, do not let other people's judgement affect you and your life and just remember the article I mentioned. Always. 

And now shortly about embarrassment. I think judgement and embarrassment are very much related. You know, you are allowed to be worried about what other people think and be embarrassed about your lifestyle while you're young. A teenager. But once you are, let's say 21 - like me, that is just a waste of your time. There is no time to be embarrassed where you come from, how you look, weather you are poor or always living on a budget. Accept yourself because there are things you cannot change. And once my very wise mom said that you simply cannot worry about things you cannot change. Yes, I come from Lithuania which is not the richest country in the world, yes I am not going on exchange because I simply have no money for it, yes I work in a fast food restaurant to support myself and yes, I leaned German language for 12 years and I still cannot speak it. But that is me you know and I would not change anything about myself if I could. Embrace improvement, but never be embarrassed about yourself, okay?

And that is the lesson for today, I hope it gave you something to think about.

Thanks for reading and have a good care-free day!

Pet peeves

* please, excuse my language in this post. If you're 12, you should leave. No, just kidding, stay. I need dem views. 

Well I always have a problem with intros. I never know how to start my post. Do I say hello and like what then? Do I do a little intro on the topic I'm going to discuss today? Actually, that sounds pretty good. Let's do that.

I hate a lot of things, okay? I get stressed and anxious very easily, So let's focus on that. Let's get to know me a little better so you all know how to stress me.  Let's talk about some pet peeves of mine.

#1: Girly jokes

Now I'd say that this is my biggest pet peeve. Let me sketch a situation for you. You sit in group of 4 girls. They're all talking and joking about some random shit. Their jokes involve topics such as: boys, sex, talking shit about other girls and etc. And you're sitting in that group thinking about killing yourself. I hate all those girly jokes. It makes me cringe, it makes me want to throw up, it makes me so mad that even now when I think about it I want to hit some particular people in their face. You get me?

#2: People being late

Before I complain about this, let me tell you that I'm always early. So maybe that's my problem. But anyways. If I have a meeting at 10 am, I will be there at 9:45 am because that's just who I am. But if it's 10:20 am and you're still not there, bitch you better have a good excuse. By good excuse I mean something like your place was on fire and you tried to fix the problem. No, but to be serious. If you can't be there at 10 am, then why the fuck would you suggest to meet at 10 am, right? 

#3: Espresso

While ordering coffee, if you say expresso instead of saying espresso, get out. I'm serious. Get out.

#4: Phones and convos

Maybe it's just me but if I'm texting someone and you're talking to me, I'm not listening. I think my boyfriend knows that. I just can't multitask on that one. Can you imagine, I'm texting someone about let's say my finding a new room problems and in the background I hear you talking with me about some movie. I cannot. I seriously can't pay attention to the person who is talking. That is why I hate when people are using their phones while I'm talking with them. I have a feeling they don't hear me so I have the urge to repeat myself. And it drives me nuts. 

#5: Seen

Or in other words, being ignored. Especially, when you ask them something and they just give u that "seen" without any answer. That actually happened to me today. And the answer to this question was really really important to me (I'm looking for a new room right now) and I never got the answer. Yes, I even double texted. 

#6: Sudden change.

This goes to girls. When one minute I'm talking with some girl and when some guy shows up they change their whole personality. And I'm standing there to witness that. Literally, kill me. And that bitch. 

Well there you go. Sorry for the rant. I just felt like sharing some things that annoy me but hopefully you enjoyed reading that and maybe you can even relate to some of my pet peeves. Let me know in the comments your biggest pet peeves! To be honest, I have more than those 6 but maybe I'll leave others for later. And for now, here is a picture of me looking bitchy. 

Will you make an affort because of his shirt?

"There comes a time when relationship gets stable, when you start thinking about moving in with the guy. And that is the moment when a magical thing happens - somehow you do not want him to be attractive to other girls, but it would be fun for you to have him looking good. Let's name this situation a lock paradox. When you put a big lock on a big door, everyone can see it. However, you are the only one who has the key to it. And, in fact, "big doors" does not mean you are fat, - you are beautiful the way you are.

But the lock has to look good, right? I'm sure you felt it - when relationship becomes serious, you start caring about the way your guy looks. It's natural and nothing to be ashamed about. For you. However, the guy can become insecure and take your style advice as an insult.

On the other hand, your guy may be a hunter. One of the most popular, or it just might be my own theory says: the differences between a man and a woman in a clothes shop were noticed a long time ago, when men were hunters and women were collecting berries and other things. That is why a woman is choosing every thing very carefully, like she used to collect berries and a man (who is a hunter) will take the first thing that fits him - as if he would throw the stick to the first mammoth he sees. A piece of clothing to this hunter is a treasure which he got easily. And if he sees that this particular shirt or whatever it is fits him, he will buy even more of them. One of the most popular hunter is the greatest inventor Steve Jobs. He had over hundreds of turtle neck sweaters in his closet created by Issey Miyake. During the interview in 2011 he even admitted that he has so many sweaters like this, he does not have to worry about it anymore. And he was right. He did not have to worry about it for the rest of his life.

When you will buy clothes for your hunter, he won't have to hunt anymore. In the mornings he will be able to fish, in the afternoons he will take animals for a walk and in the evenings he will complain about things. However, he will be happy to see that you are putting his clothes in the closet, taking care of it. 

It is common to spread rumors that men adore women in their (men) clothes. We saw that in multiple romantic comedies, music videos and we have even read about it in magazines. Yes, it looks sexy and romantic when you are one day or a month in the relationship, but when you live together it could get quite annoying. 

Just imagine: he wants to go to work and you are in his shirt. What is he supposed to do? You will let him to take the shirt off of you? And what is next? Of course, once you let him do that he will want more. And when you are fully undressed, you won't just stand there like this, right? It will be the start of something that is called horizontal gymnastics. And in the end, the guy will be running late because of it. 

Is that what you really want? Do you want to have sex with him every morning? Well, now that I've written it, I thought that it's not so bad. Quite the opposite - it's wonderful. You know what? I changed my mind. Enough of this psychological nonsense. A woman who is wearing her man's clothes is the sexiest thing to him. 

However, there are some rules. Not every piece of mens clothing fits a woman, Every top like flannel shirts, T-Shirts and hoodies are perfect but I would not recommned to try men's pants and especially not his underwear because you would look really weird in it. In addition to that, it would not be comfortable for you, especially with his underwear because there is this additional space, usually with a button, which is used when you are in a hurry and you want to take your sword out. Also, I do not recommend for a guy to try out your clothes. In the best case scenario, he will rip something up. In the worst case scenario, he will like it and you will have to start looking for someone else."

- Paulius Ambrazevičius (2016)

Now I want to say that this article is written by a man and the original language is my native one. Lithuanian. But I really liked it so I wanted to share it with you. So I made an effort (yes, it took me half a year to come up with a new post and it's not even my article) and translated it into english. Also, I wanted to give a big shout out to my mom because she was the one who forced me and motivated me to post it. Thank you, mom! 

Hope you like it and see you when I see you ;) 

- Caroline 

I was dead

Long time, no see (or no post? I'm not sure)
Didn't even have a chance to wish you all a happy new year, so doing it now. Happy New Year! Better later than never, right?
Anyway, for about two weeks I was back home in Lithuania. And it sure was nice to get back. Never thought I would say that, but having that noise around you all the time felt really good. You know, when you get back home and someone is always there. Even that annoying little brother. You have someone there to talk about your problems, about your experiences, about your day and just someone to drink coffee with every single morning. You do not appreciate it when you live with your parents, but once you are on your own you realize how it makes you feel. How it made me feel. I always need that noise, you know?
But I sure enjoyed seeing all my best friends, my parents and my grandparents and I'm very thankful for making my visit so pleasant and fun. Especially, big thanks goes to my friends (you know who you are) who came at 3 am just to say goodbye. I love you all and hopefully I will see you soon.
Now, I'm back in Holland and back to my normal life. And you know what, I'm happy with it. Okay, maybe I'm really really happy with it because I feel like I am where I belong. I'm studying what I like and have amazing people around me. What could be better, right.
Thought I would share some pictures with you if you have not seen them on my instragram. Enjoy.

Adele is everywhere

Did you hear the new Adele song?
I swear, the first time I've heard it I hated it.
But it's everywhere. Vines, youtube, facebook, instagram...
I hated the song so much that I fell inlove with it. Does that even make sense?
But anyways, I finally have something to write about since something new actually happened in my life. It's not that big or special.
On the early Thursday morning me and my uni friends (who actually became my really good friends) catched the train and went to Groningen.
Which let me tell you, is an amazing city. We were lucky because the weather was really good so we had the chance to walk though it.
The thing for me with the travelling is this, if I don't have a good company I won't enjoy it that much. And I have to admit that the day before that I wasn't really excited to go there. Maybe because I wasn't in the best mood, because of the problems every normal human being has. But since the company was the best I could imagine (besides I had my best friend by my side) it was amazing and I'm really glad I went there.
You know, my parents used to say that sometimes in life you have to do things you don't feel like doing. But in the end everything turns out to be an experience. If it's good, then okay, but if it's bad, you can always learn from it. So even if you have doubts about something, or if you're afraid to do something, don't be. Simply, just don't be and say yes more often. It could bring you so many good things and memories, you never know.
And of course, while being in Groningen I had to take some pictures just to share them with you.
Enjoy. :)

Walk and talk

I am seriously in love with the city I live in. 

It's so beautiful at night. The streets are completely empty and silent. Yesterday me and my friend were just walking through them with coffee in our hands. We were talking about everything: uni, boys, life, parents, past. And it was amazing. 

So what I'm trying to say is that for me it takes a good friend and a cup of coffee to make me happy. And I've been trying to find hapiness in life so hard that I didn't even realize that all this time I had it right next to me. Hapiness is being surrounded by amazingly nice people. Hapiness is where you feel like home. Hapiness could be a simple cup of coffee on a rainy day. Hapiness is a good book. It could be a movie that gives you a lot to think about. 

You can find hapiness everywhere if you want to. You just have to stop waiting for something big to happen to you. Ir doesn't have to be like that. You don't need money or glory to be happy. Everything is in your hands. 

Autumn Inspiration

Autumn!

Such a beautiful time of the year. Sunny but cold evenings, and those perfect cinamon candles! Loving it. :)

I know for sure that it can be hard to enjoy autumn since school is back which means a lot of homework and a lot of sleepless nights... But don't cry over that! Enjoy the weather even if it's raining, enjoy wearing sweaters and watching a movie on lazy sundays. Give some time to yourself especially if you are a student, like me. Have a day when you're doing absolutely nothing, have a day when you're going out, have a day when you're studying and spend some quality time with your family. 

And Halloween! I can't wait for it. Any costume ideas? 

Anyway, I hope you're all doing alright. Take a look at my autumn inspiration and feel free to comment. :)